Happy Green Day!
Monday, March 17, 2008
My Om Aha!
March 17, 2008
Tending The Emotions
Having A Breakdown
Tending The Emotions
Having A Breakdown
Most of us have had the experience of holding back our emotions for such a long period of time that when they finally come out, we have something resembling a breakdown. For a certain period of time, the overwhelming flood of feelings coursing through our bodies consumes us, and we stop functioning. Often, these outbursts take us by surprise, welling up within us as we drive to or from work, watch a movie, or engage in some otherwise mundane task. We may feel like we do not know what triggered us, or if we do know, it does not make sense of our overpowering emotional response. This is because we are releasing feelings that have accumulated over a long period of time, and whatever inspired the release was just a catalyst for a much larger, much needed catharsis.
When we find ourselves in the midst of such an experience, it is important that we allow it to happen, rather than fight it or try to shut down. Wherever we are, we can try to find a private, safe place in which to let our feelings out. If we can not access such a place immediately, we can promise to set aside some time for ourselves at our earliest possible convenience, perhaps taking a day off work. The important thing is that we need to give our emotional system some much-needed attention. It is essential that we allow ourselves to release the pent-up emotions inside ourselves so that they do not create imbalances in our bodies and minds.
When you are feeling better, make a plan to find a way to process your emotions more regularly. You can do this by employing a therapist or making a regular date to talk to a trusted friend. Journaling can also be a great way to acknowledge and release your emotions, as can certain forms of meditation. Making room in your life for tending your emotions on a regular basis will keep you healthy, balanced, and ready for life.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
The answer my friends...
is blowing 'round the stars! Today's Gemini Horoscope:
Even your most serious feelings won't hold you down long as your moods change often today, pulling you back and forth without giving you much time to adapt to each shift. Don't project your instability, frustration or anger onto anyone else. No one is out to make your life any tougher. Accepting full responsibility for your own state of mind now will make a big difference in your life.
*****
Get me out of me, I'm such a fuckin pain in my ass! ~thanks Amy ♥
Even your most serious feelings won't hold you down long as your moods change often today, pulling you back and forth without giving you much time to adapt to each shift. Don't project your instability, frustration or anger onto anyone else. No one is out to make your life any tougher. Accepting full responsibility for your own state of mind now will make a big difference in your life.
*****
Get me out of me, I'm such a fuckin pain in my ass! ~thanks Amy ♥
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Ode to Wumpus
Just thought they'd appreciate knowing Oregonians (the cool ones anyway) drink the Official Beer of Wumpus.Crabby Pants of the Year Award
What is the point? Really.I'm just wondering if this crabbiness in me, this burr under my saddle blanket, will reveal it's purpose soon...
So, yeah, I get that I'm uncomfortable and life is a'changin' and I'm not sure what to do... maybe it's nothing, though doing nothing has probably created this funk instead of quieting it...
So I need to do something...
What?!?!
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Monday, March 10, 2008
Cheated-on-45
I grew up without the Beatles. We lived in Elvis Country. I assumed that meant one or the other, we had Elvis til he died. Literally. His last concert was in South Dakota. We also had Hank Williams, Johnny Cash, Loretta Lynn and Dolly Parton. Not to mention Hee-Haw every Saturday night without fail.
I don't think the Beatles ever made it to Souf'akota; I don't think they'da been welcome.
I remember the titillation of hearing a certain record hit the airwaves, "Stars on 45" ~ oh yeah, snippets of the Beatles ♥ I ran right out and purchased my own vinyl copy! I had their entire (forbidden) anthology in 15 minutes!
Elvis who?
hey, I think I left that record at Danette's house in 8th grade! Can I have it back?
Fast forward 25ish years Scotty and I are sharing one of 10hundred-kabillion shared childhood memories, this record in particular. First thing, we hit YouTube ♥ and nope, that can't be it. Keep looking Beatles Stars on 45... we keep landing on this bizarre Dutch cover group who are impersonating the Beatles. We want the real thing, like when we were kids.
Oh. Fuck.
We were tricked.
Big Time.
I fell in love with the Beatles, much to the chagrin of my Dutch grandfather, an Elvis lover.
Who's chagrin would have been lessened if he'd known it was a Dutch Trick.
He'da been proud of his countrymen. He probably would have let me play the 45 at his house.
He probably woulda let me play regular guitar, instead of slide guitar all the time.
I'm a bit chagrined right here, now, myself. Tricked. For 25 27 years. Whoa.
It wasn't even the Beatles. Not even good Beatles wigs.
I don't know if I'll ever get over this discovery.
I feel "Milli-Vanilli-ed"
I need a bath.
That said, they also do a pretty cool Stevie Wonder medley :) It's on my phone.
I don't think the Beatles ever made it to Souf'akota; I don't think they'da been welcome.
I remember the titillation of hearing a certain record hit the airwaves, "Stars on 45" ~ oh yeah, snippets of the Beatles ♥ I ran right out and purchased my own vinyl copy! I had their entire (forbidden) anthology in 15 minutes!
Elvis who?
hey, I think I left that record at Danette's house in 8th grade! Can I have it back?
Fast forward 25ish years Scotty and I are sharing one of 10hundred-kabillion shared childhood memories, this record in particular. First thing, we hit YouTube ♥ and nope, that can't be it. Keep looking Beatles Stars on 45... we keep landing on this bizarre Dutch cover group who are impersonating the Beatles. We want the real thing, like when we were kids.
Oh. Fuck.
We were tricked.
Big Time.
I fell in love with the Beatles, much to the chagrin of my Dutch grandfather, an Elvis lover.
Who's chagrin would have been lessened if he'd known it was a Dutch Trick.
He'da been proud of his countrymen. He probably would have let me play the 45 at his house.
He probably woulda let me play regular guitar, instead of slide guitar all the time.
I'm a bit chagrined right here, now, myself. Tricked. For 25 27 years. Whoa.
It wasn't even the Beatles. Not even good Beatles wigs.
I don't know if I'll ever get over this discovery.
I feel "Milli-Vanilli-ed"
I need a bath.
That said, they also do a pretty cool Stevie Wonder medley :) It's on my phone.
Life is short, Memory isn't
...because there are just never enough reminders.
I'm speaking at the OHEN Conference, at the end of this month. My talk is entitled, "Life Uncommon, Love Uncommon" and will be a fun-filled tour of my mind and the human connections in my Life, especially as provided by Unschooling. Another amazing opportunity to ponder what I've learned in these 40 years as diana, in the big relationships and in the smaller ones; how exactly to communicate what I mean, as I speak from a moving train of relationship evolution*...
I am compelled to share Lisa Heyman with this crowd. To impress upon them the only neural pathways that matter are the ones carrying the signals of Comfort, Safety, Love and Joy from the humans to whom we matter most in the World.
A calculator can replace the times table, nothing in the world can replace mama times. I hear Lisa's message ringing in my heart, it's one of Love and Beauty, of the Here and Now, of Urgency and Abundance... this I am meant to share. Thank you Lisa, for your story I can weave into the quilt of my history, to surround my soul and feel your warmth, still.
As these stories tumble and roll, through my mind, arranged and tossed about, my talk takes shape... still sounding like diana, in a far more cohesive form than usual ;)
Another adventure takes my breath away, stretches my heart and strengthens my resolve...
River drowned in the ocean.
River was a new friend of ours. His mama is married to Scotty's good friend, Jack Lazer. Dustin, Sarah and Miles moved here to be nearer River. The past 6 months were joyous as bonds were made and relationships forged. He was a happy, happy boy.
They're one sad family right now.
This is as hard to witness as it is to experience.
It's way too soon. It's just the right time.
It's totally fucked up. All is as it should be.
Whatever. Amen.
*okay, honestly I'm doing this prep for *me* and my own realizations, most everyone is gonna be hanging out with Mary Griffin ~ I would be too! Now I know how Broc felt, having his funshop scheduled at the same time as my sex talk...
I'm speaking at the OHEN Conference, at the end of this month. My talk is entitled, "Life Uncommon, Love Uncommon" and will be a fun-filled tour of my mind and the human connections in my Life, especially as provided by Unschooling. Another amazing opportunity to ponder what I've learned in these 40 years as diana, in the big relationships and in the smaller ones; how exactly to communicate what I mean, as I speak from a moving train of relationship evolution*...
I am compelled to share Lisa Heyman with this crowd. To impress upon them the only neural pathways that matter are the ones carrying the signals of Comfort, Safety, Love and Joy from the humans to whom we matter most in the World.
A calculator can replace the times table, nothing in the world can replace mama times. I hear Lisa's message ringing in my heart, it's one of Love and Beauty, of the Here and Now, of Urgency and Abundance... this I am meant to share. Thank you Lisa, for your story I can weave into the quilt of my history, to surround my soul and feel your warmth, still.
As these stories tumble and roll, through my mind, arranged and tossed about, my talk takes shape... still sounding like diana, in a far more cohesive form than usual ;)
Another adventure takes my breath away, stretches my heart and strengthens my resolve...
River drowned in the ocean.
River was a new friend of ours. His mama is married to Scotty's good friend, Jack Lazer. Dustin, Sarah and Miles moved here to be nearer River. The past 6 months were joyous as bonds were made and relationships forged. He was a happy, happy boy.
They're one sad family right now.
This is as hard to witness as it is to experience.
It's way too soon. It's just the right time.
It's totally fucked up. All is as it should be.
Whatever. Amen.
*okay, honestly I'm doing this prep for *me* and my own realizations, most everyone is gonna be hanging out with Mary Griffin ~ I would be too! Now I know how Broc felt, having his funshop scheduled at the same time as my sex talk...
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Thursday 13, Song Covers
Thanks Ronnie for having 13 other things to talk about today ♥
♥ and makin' this one easy for me!
13 of my all time favorite Covers:
1. Hallelujah
(Rufus Wainwright for Shrek/Leonard Cohen)
2. I'm a Believer
(Eddie Murphy for Shrek/The Monkees)
3. You Belong to Me
(Jason Wade for yep, Shrek/Sue Thompson)
4. Sweet Jane
(Cowboy Junkies/Lou Reed)
5. Pinball Wizard
(Elton John/The Who)
6. Nothing Compares 2 U
(Sinead O'Connor/Prince)
7. Hurt
(Johnny Cash/NIN)
8. Hit Me Baby One More Time
(Bowling for Soup/Britney)
9. I Ran (so far away)
(BfS/Flock of Seagulls)
10. I Will Always Love You
(Whitney/Dolly Parton)
after careful consideration, I like Dolly's better afterall!
10. Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds
(Elton John/The Beatles)
11. Open Arms
(Low/Journey)
12. Land of Confusion
(Disturbed/Genesis)
13. Mad World
(Traaseth Family at L&L/Gary Jules for Donnie Darko/Tears for Fears)
♥ and makin' this one easy for me!
13 of my all time favorite Covers:1. Hallelujah
(Rufus Wainwright for Shrek/Leonard Cohen)
2. I'm a Believer
(Eddie Murphy for Shrek/The Monkees)
3. You Belong to Me
(Jason Wade for yep, Shrek/Sue Thompson)
4. Sweet Jane
(Cowboy Junkies/Lou Reed)
5. Pinball Wizard
(Elton John/The Who)
6. Nothing Compares 2 U
(Sinead O'Connor/Prince)
7. Hurt
(Johnny Cash/NIN)
8. Hit Me Baby One More Time
(Bowling for Soup/Britney)
9. I Ran (so far away)
(BfS/Flock of Seagulls)
10. I Will Always Love You
(Whitney/Dolly Parton)
after careful consideration, I like Dolly's better afterall!
10. Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds
(Elton John/The Beatles)
11. Open Arms
(Low/Journey)
12. Land of Confusion
(Disturbed/Genesis)
13. Mad World
(Traaseth Family at L&L/Gary Jules for Donnie Darko/Tears for Fears)
Monday, March 03, 2008
Feelings, nothing more than Feelings....
Ah! Life without feeling anything has been a welcome relief this past week or so...
or so I thought...
After investing lots of time and energy into an emotional trainwreck, I've withdrawn myself into the eye of the storm. So Chaos still reigns, though I've stopped the Rain of Chaos ♥ First, all of my feelings were vying for time in my head, where they stuffed my nose, throat, ears and chest, when they couldn't have my attention. As a good human, I stuffed even deeper still, so now my misery lives in my guts -- not a fun day!
With Lisa's transition just the day after Hannah's anniversary, I've not let myself feel what it is my soul is begging me to feel after losing my good friend. I simultaneously want to pull my still-living friends close to me and protect them from the boogie man called Death *and* I want to push them away so the pain is not so acute when they leave.
We spent Sunday afternoon with a local hs group and I met lots of really cool folk... and the inner commentary was filled with you're fine for lunch and meeting at the park, I don't think I want to invest any deeper here -- and NOT because I couldn't find 1,001 commonalities, because the pain of having dear friends and then *not* having dear friends is too too too much for my mind... (though obviously not for my heart and soul or destiny, it seems)
Y'all are gonna die and I don't like it, not one bit. Just so ya know.
After investing lots of time and energy into an emotional trainwreck, I've withdrawn myself into the eye of the storm. So Chaos still reigns, though I've stopped the Rain of Chaos ♥ First, all of my feelings were vying for time in my head, where they stuffed my nose, throat, ears and chest, when they couldn't have my attention. As a good human, I stuffed even deeper still, so now my misery lives in my guts -- not a fun day!
With Lisa's transition just the day after Hannah's anniversary, I've not let myself feel what it is my soul is begging me to feel after losing my good friend. I simultaneously want to pull my still-living friends close to me and protect them from the boogie man called Death *and* I want to push them away so the pain is not so acute when they leave.
We spent Sunday afternoon with a local hs group and I met lots of really cool folk... and the inner commentary was filled with you're fine for lunch and meeting at the park, I don't think I want to invest any deeper here -- and NOT because I couldn't find 1,001 commonalities, because the pain of having dear friends and then *not* having dear friends is too too too much for my mind... (though obviously not for my heart and soul or destiny, it seems)
Y'all are gonna die and I don't like it, not one bit. Just so ya know.
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