Musings...

Gemini: You may be thinking about postponing or even canceling an upcoming trip due to responsibilities you cannot avoid. The hardest part about this is not just changing your plans; the disappointment can bring up memories of a similar event from the past. Letting go of your feelings attached to a previous experience can help you focus your attention and efficiently manage the current situation.
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I want a big vacation. I deserve a big vacation. I am the girl who takes really big vacations. I make it work. Always. Bizarre but True. I'm going to Life is Good, it's gonna be amazing and fulfilling and all that wonderful diana's-crazy-life stuff that manifests around me. This is an already gonna happen and not in doubt...
I wanna go to California and yeah, I feel like I gotta go to California. Mitch's Gramma hasn't had the greatest year, she just turned 89 and I want to see her as often as I can, while I still can. There's a lot that comes with that visit. There's great strides in the Mimi sitch and I know this is a great journey- our relationship- as our family morphs and shifts. She'll be freshly retired and ready to live a new life with 50 more hours a week for her family!
The sunshine beckons me,
I have to move soon,
I don't wanna be gone so long,
My cat will miss me, the kids will miss me, my boyfriend will miss me ♥
I will miss Christine and ZoAnne and Chance and Gary and Lenetta and and and and...
~~I must say right now, that this is exactly why it sucks to be a Gemini sometimes!!~~
I dunno what's gonna happen, I can see it either way :) As I don't yet have Howard, I guess there's really no decision to be made at this point...
Light a candle for Howard and channel some healing energy for Uncle Troy:

What if...

Hayden crawled into the empty, but still warm spot left by Scotty and we all chatted as S got ready for work. A few days before, he called Scotty's phone and sang the Campfiresong Song for his voicemail, as Scotty really loved it, Hayden was happy to sing for him again for future listening. When we were alone, I asked him how he feels about Scotty... he says he hope we get married. Then provide him with a new sibling next year. What if?? What does that look like? What does that feel like? Joy abound surrounding and awaiting us on this adventure, I can taste it.
This is all very ethereal and tingly and oh so very strange. The Secret was a great reminder of the vocabulary and practice of what I'd already laid foundation for in our lives. Because I know that Hayden has great power in his understanding of how the Universe works, I can see his order being fulfilled before our eyes. I know we'll have the perfect home, because we will. I know I have Great Love in my Life, because I do. I know we will always have Joy, because we know how to find it. Gratitude isn't nearly a big enough word. Amazing, our Life is Pure Amazing Grace right now... mmmmmm!

today, exactly

Gemini: It's rather difficult for you to focus your mind on your immediate responsibilities, but this is exactly what you must do. Temporarily set aside your desire for fun and pleasure in order to meet a deadline or to plan for what's ahead. Take full advantage of this moment to accomplish as much as possible to pave the wave for your future success.
*no time to blog, only one internet connection at the moment... I've got more to say though, much more, much, much more, very soon!*

God as Gary

Meet Gary and his tribe... He's the True Love of Christine, conjured by pure Love and Majik ♥ I'm so glad he was born and I'm even more glad our paths have crossed on this crazy journey of Life. Thank you for the gift you are to the world, especially this little corner of it! You are truly a Blessing Manifest!

I'm just excited to show off Christine's beautiful art work and her amazing Spawn ♥

I am a Haiku geek!

I'm thinking I should convert my talk next month entirely to haiku form :)
Floating through my life lately:

My Life is my Own
This is the Path I travel
Joy as my Master.
~me

Homework: like the sea
while spring break week comes and goes,
I'm so tired of school.
~S

The stars will align
When we find ourselves alone
Oh! How I'll take you!
~S

On Yacht Rock:
Oh Mike McDonald...
Sail the Seas of smooth music?
...Walter Becker's bitch.
~S

What a happy day!
Alex won the six-foot sub,
which I will help eat! :)
~S

You dare say to me:
"It's for my pleasure, not yours"
You selfish bastard!
~me

On the commute home
Hannah's flower on the dash
hoping she likes me :)
~S

Wanting to see you~
the thought occurs to me that
I am with you still.
~S

Valentine ATC Pictures

Scotty had them in his book, so I took the opportunity to get a picture ♥
"Universality" reads: Love is Good Karma,
"When first we met" reads: Once in a Blue Moon,
and the self-titled "Ordinary Turned Extraordinary"

Why I read my horror-scope

Sometimes a girl just needs a bit of reinforcement from the heavens...
from Midco today:
Gemini: Go ahead and trust those instincts, especially if you're considering taking a radical new step on your life's path. While it may seem overwhelming at first, you'll muddle through somehow. A fresh start awaits.
My life is rockin' and rollin' right now... It always seems overwhelming and I'm always tempted to go there, but somehow I do, indeed, muddle through. For me right now, it's a nod to Scotty, it's approval for the home we seek, it's the income I don't yet know is ready for me, it's embarking on a whole new chapter and here I am at the precipice, mindful and present, ready, willing and able to choose where I go and who I am on this path. Pretty fecking cool!
then from tarot.com:
Gemini: Even the most difficult relationship may now become easier to handle, but beware that this will not last unless you face the underlying problems. You are likely on the right track, but circumstances might require you to alter your plans. Be ready to change your direction and plot a new course. Holding on to the past can stand between you and future success.
I think of Hayden when I read this. He inspires me to recreate myself time and time again, to be his mom-in-the-moment. Early this morning (Monday) I got up Scotty-early and we had three hours of just us, talking and laughing, watching silly TV and making commentary. Doin' it the same ol' way in a new dimension isn't fair to any of us... figuring out the now and letting go of the then sure sounds like a good tactic. I almost began kvetching about the ways I've not done that for my son; On a gentler-to-myself approach, I am excited to be here anticipating what I shall do for my son and who I shall be with him in the moments he needs his mommy.
I am so Blessed.

Up for air

O Great Sovereign One
Make me your Puerto Rico
I shall be conquered

Yeah, like that. After our first night of incredible passionate, crazy making out :)
Hayden was feeling the heat... he's asked to come in a few times. We parted and made welcome, he chatted with us for a bit, then went on about his business. It was a great test of where he fits in the equation; upon realizing it's still a team approach, he was comforted enough to be autonomous again. We went right back to our business as well ;) We've discovered a really cool time trick (though it may only work on days S doesn't go to school) whereby we take a big afternoon nap and spend 12-3 am exploring... giggity, giggity, giggity, oooooh yeah!
I did not get a nap yesterday, however, and we had a big evening with lots o'kids & bowling alley madness! As I wanted to sleep, I broke out full-coverage comfy jammies. Didn't work, though... they're flanneled on the skin side and red satin on the outside... Scotty magnet! Oh darn, gave up sleep for molestation, not a bad trade ::bg::
Today we are resisting our draw and retreating to neutral corners; him for homework and me for writing ♥ 'salright, we'll break out the jammies again tonight :)
Hey Mel & Eric - thanks! ♥

Happy Haiku

Our Souls shine bright white,
Sublime need not be subtle,
I Love You Love Me.
~me

In my dreams today
we met my whole family
now they love you too
~S.

~all the more amazing because I received Scotty's poem as I was sending mine to him- Divine Timing!!~

My year, by Christine