Your big ideals about relationships don't always match up with reality. Even now, you might be trying to figure out what's really going on. You have attracted someone into your life who is confusing you as he or she attempts to transform you. Use your highly discriminating logical mind to decide what you want out of this situation and then lay your cards out on the table. Once you know where you are going, there's no reason to hide your intentions.
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Once again... the stars align with my mind!
Between everything else I've got going on in my Life, I've been pondering the Tony situation. I could not have imagined such an immediate soulful connection to someone (I almost wrote "someone I met on the internet" but that has already been disproven over and over in my life!) at this point in my life. But here we are... soul-fully connected! Each and every conversation seems to bring us further evidence of the *rightness* of relationship. It seems we're too busy talking and fortifying our connection to move to another level. I'm a patient woman (as proven by my relationship with David!) and I want NOT to push anything beyond what the Universe has in store for us... but there's this want inside me, this need for something deeper and broader and somehow more permanent; or at least heading that way. I love, love, love this getting to know ya part of a relationship, I feel so free in my being with Tony... taking it further just makes sense, encompassing the whole of my life.
But the other day, in the midst of our Spirit Bear talk and interrupted by the death of my cell phone, a comment slipped out that has been haunting me... Tony pointed out the difference in our future plans and said he knows he's here to help me deal with the deaths of Mitch and Hannah. Which I don't doubt for a second... but I *do* doubt that is all the Universe has in store for us. I'm really too optimistic to believe someone this cool would (yet again!?!) be dangled before me and be pulled away before the whole of the picture is complete. Is he putting up a wall because he feels our paths are diverging? Is there really nothing beyond *Queen of Death* for him? Does he not see me outside that role? Yeah, these are questions for him and him alone to answer for me, but I've gotta get them out of my head so I can focus on what I need to do before we leave for the big Trek... Unfortunately, Tony's also on his own road trip and we won't be able to have any face time for a couple of weeks. Fortunately, I'll be so busy during those next weeks to spend much time pondering (again, I wrote any time, but Lord knows I will find time to do some pondering ::bg::) Criminy, does he really think he's gonna meet some other cool chick willing to live in his Yert in nowhere, WI and winter in Mexico and take off to Peru on a whim? pshaw! I *am* her -- I just don't know how to convince him!
So, here it is... Tony, if you're reading this on your trek, ponder along and we'll talk soon :)
Between everything else I've got going on in my Life, I've been pondering the Tony situation. I could not have imagined such an immediate soulful connection to someone (I almost wrote "someone I met on the internet" but that has already been disproven over and over in my life!) at this point in my life. But here we are... soul-fully connected! Each and every conversation seems to bring us further evidence of the *rightness* of relationship. It seems we're too busy talking and fortifying our connection to move to another level. I'm a patient woman (as proven by my relationship with David!) and I want NOT to push anything beyond what the Universe has in store for us... but there's this want inside me, this need for something deeper and broader and somehow more permanent; or at least heading that way. I love, love, love this getting to know ya part of a relationship, I feel so free in my being with Tony... taking it further just makes sense, encompassing the whole of my life.
But the other day, in the midst of our Spirit Bear talk and interrupted by the death of my cell phone, a comment slipped out that has been haunting me... Tony pointed out the difference in our future plans and said he knows he's here to help me deal with the deaths of Mitch and Hannah. Which I don't doubt for a second... but I *do* doubt that is all the Universe has in store for us. I'm really too optimistic to believe someone this cool would (yet again!?!) be dangled before me and be pulled away before the whole of the picture is complete. Is he putting up a wall because he feels our paths are diverging? Is there really nothing beyond *Queen of Death* for him? Does he not see me outside that role? Yeah, these are questions for him and him alone to answer for me, but I've gotta get them out of my head so I can focus on what I need to do before we leave for the big Trek... Unfortunately, Tony's also on his own road trip and we won't be able to have any face time for a couple of weeks. Fortunately, I'll be so busy during those next weeks to spend much time pondering (again, I wrote any time, but Lord knows I will find time to do some pondering ::bg::) Criminy, does he really think he's gonna meet some other cool chick willing to live in his Yert in nowhere, WI and winter in Mexico and take off to Peru on a whim? pshaw! I *am* her -- I just don't know how to convince him!
So, here it is... Tony, if you're reading this on your trek, ponder along and we'll talk soon :)
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