Oh wait, there's this too!

My midco horoscope today :)
Sometimes other people mistake you for a lightweight because you have so many diverse interests and friends. You know they're full of hot air. Being multifaceted isn't the same as being shallow.
hee hee
The other one says:

No matter how much you struggle, success seems to stay one step ahead of you now. It's not that you have a bad attitude; it's something you just cannot put your finger on. So, maybe your temporary answer is to take it easy. Make time to enjoy yourself while remaining flexible. There could be a few surprises today that change everything.

...and that, darlin' is what makes my life mine!

It's a Temp Job

...this life, and what comes after, I suspect, as well...
I've been watching Dead Like Me, a deathly addictive show ::g::

My friend Jacqui sent Melissa into my life today. Jacqui sent a package of amazing Hannah ashes stuff and Melissa's son, Joshua, died a year ago in December... Jessie is her beautiful still-here daughter; Josh had a great life while it lasted, much like Hannah. I'm sending back to Jacqui, through Melissa's consciousness, a Hannah bag of grieving books and Thich Nhat Hahn's book of Anger. I'm also sending along the water bug & dragonfly book for Carol Mayer, who was covered in dragonflies the last time I saw her and was shocked to know she'd not heard the story!

I think it turned out to be a really fair trade between the souls today. I got to meet a couple of soul sisters in Melissa and Jessie; a strengthened bond with Jacqui ~ good call! I got to meet Joshua. They got to meet Hannah & Hayden. Melissa got some comfort. I got some insight. Hannah has a new big brother in Heaven, I guess Josh was pretty good at that job with his own sister. She's been asked to also give him a kick in the pants for his mother. ::bg::
There's the offering, always, of another's perspective; it never hurts to take a peek, even for me, through the eyes of another. Jessie glowed when talking about her brother. I'm not sure if I yet feel the glow when I speak of Hannah, though Jessie may have been my mirror at that moment. I got to return to the universe some books that did not speak to me on my journey and they now have the opportunity to go to their rightful homes and speak to whom they need to heal. Kinda like me and Melissa; I got healing from our experience today and I strive to provide that myself.

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I'm going to flirt madly with the drummer of a local band on Saturday nite...
For those who know the scoop, this merely brings me one step closer into Eric's vortex, bwahahahahaha.... <---my best benevolent stalker laugh :^D

To My Friends...

On Friendship

Kahlil Gibran

Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.

When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind,nor do you withhold the "ay."
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires,
all expectations are born and shared,
with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence,
as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship
save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.

And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter,
and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning
and is refreshed.

You honor me with the gift of your friendship,
Namaste

**yet another reason I love myspace! I carried this over with the utmost love and honor in my heart...
so thank you to whomever shared this there, so I could share it here!**

I'm Cleanin'

Oh yeah, I'm dancin' cause I can... I've got floor space... Oh yeah! Life is Good! More out tomorrow, Eli's comin' over to help... (only until his dad gets off work, then he's gotta go warm up the garage so they can focus on Howard) Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy!!

For them ding dang difonzo kids... and all they taught me through ren & stimpy on saturday nights in the valley...

My 80s Theme Song...

happens to be the same song I laughingly learned a routine to... in order to try out for cheerleading... That's right, get back on your chair and clean up the spit from your computer screen! 17-year-old, gawky, uncoordinated Diana Lambert actually tried out for the cheerleading squad in 1985... it was a mockery, but I didn't fall down, I didn't cry and I didn't kick myself in the head (the three big fears!)

Your 80s Theme Song Is:

Material Girl by Madonna

What's Your 80s Theme Song?

Crown Chakra Color!

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

Thanks Mary!

Dashboard Confessional

Today's Stars: Although others may truly believe that all is well, they cannot see what's happening behind your clever tongue and your sparkling eyes. It's not that things are going badly; they just may not be as good as you make them appear. Don't hold back too much or you might inadvertently set the stage for a minor emotional meltdown.

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Okay, I guess that means I gotta admit I'm feeling pretty sad... I'm sad that Tony seems so ding dang afraid of me (for pretty good reasons, I even have to admit) and that a resolution is not on the horizon for us. I'm sad that I've got so much to give and no where to put it. I'm sad that I look outside of myself for validation. I'm sad that I truly believe the Universe abhors a vacuum and yet I don't see the weighty gain from my weighty losses. I'm sad that some small part of me thinks I'm running away; alternately, I'm glad a large part of me doesn't believe that is True. I'm sad to leave the good parts of the Life we've created here. I'm sad to leave the happy Hannah memories of this space; I'm sad that unhappy Hannah memories even exist in my heart. I'm still so freaking sad that she's not here. I'm sad for the life her death has forced me to forfeit.
And yet, my clever tongue and sparkling eyes do tell the story of what's in me (what is me)... that sparkly, happy Self that can't be bothered to be bogged down by unhappiness. I do know the Secret, I know I shall receive exactly what I'm asking for, just as soon as I clarify in my OWN Self what that is, exactly. I'm so glad I'm willing to be led by my Spirit, I'm willing to do the Creator's bidding as my Life as diana. This too shall pass... all too soon!

I Am Project

"Creating social awareness and changing society's distorted vision of women. Focusing on natural real women - true beauty."

I Am Project

Creating a book of real, unaltered women; to show true beauty in captivating photographs.

You know I'm already signed up!

Koren has already e-mailed me back, explaining their funds are not yet ready for her to travel to me, but I'm sure (hee hee, I feel like I've got some kind of inside track to the Creator) it will work out, so that this project will be a success and I will get to be a part of it.
I think I want to do my Tree pose, my favorite from when I modeled for David's artists group... (tangent!)
While thinking of a pose for me, one gentleman began to suggest, then withdrew, saying, "Ah, you wouldn't do it anyway" Well, pique my interest! "I can't deny you if I don't know what you're asking." I respond. "Well," he says, "I'd really like to draw you like this:" and he stands with his feet firmly planted and his arms outstretched over his head. I wholeheartedly agree to do the pose, with the understanding I'll have to drop my arms from time to time, but I could give a 1-2 minute warning before a 2-3 minute break. OMG! It is the most beautiful drawing I have of myself!! My tummy is all whirly swirly and you can see the goddess just bursting out of my being. The Tree of Life, I am!
The funniest part of the story actually took place months later, while having dinner at David's with the drawing group, my Aunt Donna comes over and wouldn't ya know it, her pastor is there having dinner, too! Reverend Harlan! she proclaims, much to my surprise, it's my artist buddy, the author of my favorite drawing -- and worse, she realizes her minister has seen her niece naked!! She was only embarrassed for a year or so, she's over it now ;)

The Mastery of Love

Gemini: Your spirits lift now that the Moon is in fiery Leo. You are still in a rather serious phase, but you can see the benefits of the inner work you are doing. You needed to dig into your own spirituality to find a new direction. The process is ongoing, but your returning optimism is certainly reassuring.
Today's Quote: The beginning of knowledge is the discovery of something we do not understand. - Frank Herbert
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And on that note, Karen happened to be online just a moment ago with enough time to chat a bit! A very rare and much appreciated treat! Through the conversation, she mentions the 4 Agreements, and specifically the principle: Be impeccable with your Word. I mention how Hayden is familiar with that book and it's principles, how much I use them as Mantras: Be Impeccable with Your Word; Never Assume; Don't Take it Personally; and Always Do Your Best. As we chatted about how we use Always Do Your Best in place of the (nonsense) word: "Try" & how I make sure to give myself credit for giving all 35% when that is all I have available. Right then I remembered, I own The Mastery of Love and have not yet read it, I quickly found it and discovered, much to my great joy and gratitude, the book is about LOVE from Self Love to Being Love in our relationships. What jumps out at me: ...how to heal our emotional wounds, recover the freedom and joy that are our birthright, and restore the spirit of playfulness that is vital to loving relationships.
*Why "domestication" and the "image of perfection" lead to Self-rejection
*The war of control that slowly destroys most relationships
*Why we hunt for love in others, how to capture the love inside us
*How to finally accept and forgive ourselves and others
...when every action we take is an expression of Love ... Love in action can only produce happiness.
Whew! Off to read s'more! Thanks Karen for speaking for the Spirit!

On God's Menu

The Stars Today:
It's a good time to express your desires and wishes in direct, precise language. After all, most people aren't mind readers, and it's unfair to expect them to know what you've been needing all this time. Communicate!
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What a great day to begin my order for 2007!
My energy beats back inertia; I love myself enough to remain active
My body reflects my self love; my health is abundant
My home reflects my welcoming, embracing, loving, generous Soul
My home is my own refuge and respite for all who call upon us
My home is surrounded by beauty, both of nature and of Spirit
My cup runneth over...
My patience is boundless
My love is freely given
My heart is unbreakable
My faith is strong
There is always enough
There is always more
There is always... all ways
Plentiful is my life and Bountiful are my blessings
Thank you Gods (all of 'em) for our gifts, revealed to us at the perfect moment, the perfect fit for our needs/wants/desires/requests
I am worthy, he is worthy, we are worthy, YOU are worthy
Thank me for me, for constant re-creation & recreation

I dance and I dance...
for I am the Lord of my Dance says me
to be continually continued...

P.S. I can't wait to see my new home and my new volvo and my new LOVE!! yay me!!