Today's Tea Leaves

This week's Unconscious Mutterings:

1. Memorable ::Life
2. Resolution :: Solve
   
3. Goal :: Peace
   
4. 2008 :: Awake
   
5. Sensational :: Ability
   
6. Popular demand :: Me
   
7. Old :: Tools
   
8. Music :: Dance
   
9. Intense :: Baggage
   
10. 2007 :: Numb
    

Today's Daily Om Gemini Horoscope Stimulating Life:
You may feel courageous enough to break out of your usual routine today. You might be seeking new adventures, mental stimulation, or physical activity that will get your adrenaline pumping. These feelings can indicate a deeper feeling of boredom or dissatisfaction. Perhaps your career feels stagnant, or your relationships seem to have hit a snag. A good way to discover where improvements are needed is to consider the various areas of your life. If any of them leave you feeling restless or bored, you might decide to infuse these areas with new energy today. You could change your schedule, approach your work in new ways, or find ways to rejuvenate your relationships.
Making a simple change can turn your life into a new experience to be explored.

We can bring more excitement to our lives by making a conscious effort to seek new adventures and create opportunities for growth. Because of our busy schedules, we might not notice when certain aspects of our life become stagnant. Finding adventure and challenging ourselves to grow ensures that we never become bored. As we transform, so will our lives. Life is always a new experience because we are always creating it. Our minds and spirits are stimulated, and we feel more fulfilled and excited by life. You can remove stagnation from your life today by seeking exciting opportunities to grow, learn, and discover new worlds.

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Those words have been ringing through my head. They've swirled out of the mouths of those around me. I've chosen not to highlight the words which represent the reality of my many past nows. The bags to unpack. The baggage to leave behind. I've got courage to face what is and faith in what's possible.
I've been numb for at least a year. At least. Depression? eh. Hiding? Yeah. Like that. So. I just zipped off a letter to Mary's Acupuncture Goddess. Unblocked chi is never a bad thing. And yet that will not be the beginning. The beginning is already here. I already walk with new intentions. I am ready. Yes. I have the Courage to be Ready. Now.

For all that has come to pass,
I say thank you.
For all that shall come to pass,
I say YES!

Gonna find me a chi station!

Friday Fill-in

Movie Quote edition. The real quotes are readily available, here are my additions to the fun!

1. "I don't expect you will really understand the beauty of the softly simmering cauldron with its shimmering fumes, the delicate power of liquids that creep through human veins, into the mind, until all are convinced I *should* be Czar of America."

2. "Why is the King always gone?"

3. "Harold, *everyone* has the right to make an imaginary twin to face all the shitty stuff they don't wanna."

4. "Nine companions, so be it. You shall be A Non-Con."

5. "Nonsense, I have not yet begun to grieve."

6. "Mama says they was magic shoes. They could take me anywhere, and comfortably- they's birks!"

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a peace filled evening with my boy, tomorrow my plans include supporting Tena thru her dd's mystery illness, pondering a quick jaunt to Vegas and making paper cranes from wrapping paper before Scotty throws it away :D and Sunday, I want to check out the local UU fellowship & see a movie with the boys!

Mrs. G's Next Secret Boyfriend

Dear Friend,
I must introduce you, if you've not already signed him up, to my delicious fantasy, Neil Gaiman. I just wanna hang out with his mind someday. We'll have coffee and stare at one another (because, honestly, he's not hard to stare at) while our chittering, spider-monkeys-on-acid minds run off together to some carousel-accessed other-world and plot an exciting, amazing, impossible and godly adventure. They'll return to us exhausted and permanently entangled. We'll be adequately caffeinated to follow along wherever they take us! ♥
A very long time ago, Christine sent me American Gods. A lightning bolt. A shockwave. A primordal zap of connection. A quickening. Wrapped up in imaginative, vibrant, literary entertainment. This amazing human had been revealed. I was not alone. Neil knows, too. Yesterday, Scotty got Anansi Boys for Xmas... ooooh! He'll be able to read it tomorrow, I'll finish it tonight... then when he's done, I'll read it again. The man can spin a web of tales like the Spider Gods he writes of. And when your eyes hurt from sucking up the story too quick for your brain to process, you take a little break and check out Neil on the back cover. In fact, that's the exact picture from Anansi Boys. Enough blogging, back to reading and drooling (away from the electronics!).
Happy Fantasizing!
Love,
me
(p.s. this fantasy is SCB approved, he happens to love Neil's Sandman series. No kinscern necessary.)

On Winter's First Full Moon

Courtesy of Mother Crone...

As the sunlight returns to our days and with it the reminder of the promise of possibilities. I ask that you join me in holding the World in a vision of complete Peace and see waves of Understanding and compassion washing over all.

May you feel the Light of Love always
and in all ways.
May you remember every breath is a prayer
May you sense the infinite Possibilities
and the wonder of Life,
And always remember, that one person makes all the difference
and that person is YOU!

Namaste

For the record, I AM Committed. At least I should be. Sparkles?

Diana's Random Movie Quote: 'Sometimes I doubt your commitment to Sparkle Motion.' - Kitty Farmer, Donnie Darko Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

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Might there be an awakening, afterall?

Consulting Your Inner Wisdom ~ December 21, 2007 ~Gemini Daily Horoscope

You may feel the need for solitude today, so you can think more deeply about the quality of your life. Perhaps you’ve been feeling dissatisfied or unsure whether you are still following the right path for you. Rather than looking for answers outside of yourself, you can turn within and gain the guidance you seek today. Set aside quiet time for yourself and consider any issue you’ve been worrying about or struggling with. Hold this issue in your mind and examine it from all angles without judgment. This gives your higher self a chance to speak, and you just might have a moment of illumination that answers the questions in your heart. If you feel any nudges toward a certain direction today, you might follow where they lead, as this could also be your inner guidance providing an answer.

By consulting our inner wisdom, we can receive guidance on issues and make decisions that are in our best interest. Most of us are so used to taking direction from others that we forget to turn within to answer our own questions. While outside counsel can be helpful, we can gain greater insight about our lives by consulting ourselves. Our higher self already knows what is best for us, and by following that guidance we can make wiser decisions and smoother life transitions. By consulting your inner wisdom on any uncertainties you are struggling with today, you can receive powerful guidance that will help you create the life you desire.

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and I wonder where my son gets his stuckedness...

Dear Eros,
I'd've thought you dead, with your absolute absence from my Life; though I wonder if, perhaps, this may be a trick. Not very funny one, just so ya know. Super Cool only extends so far, Super Frustrated is quick to move on in and take over. Was gratitude incomplete for my white-hot mid 30s? Be assured, I remain in awe at the frequency and ease of my sensual bliss.
I've come to a place of acceptance. If this is what I got, it's really okay. It'd be easier, I think, if I actually had issues, intimacy issues. Do I? Issues can be dealt with, the absence of issues and a personal acceptance of this current stage of my sexual development has become a major issue.
I know what to do, I know exactly what to do. It's taking that first scary step to getting back on the bicycle, the riding will be as fun as it ever was. I got good coaching, direct to who diana is, in a language that makes sense in my context. And it didn't work; improper match to a larger context. I was as dejected as the pimply boy on prom night. Wowzer, what a lesson. Thanks for the gift of insight on that one. Mayhap a nicety is better without explanation; or at least save the explanation for after the gift of selflessness. No body cares why you just did that, there seems a large emotional investment, however, in why you're going to do that. Check.
Methinks a new commitment to a combination of detox, acupuncture, and movement may create a space for your attentions. Within and without. This too shall pass. I will breathe and learn.
Our Gifts are Abundant
All is As it Should be.

Love, me

Holiday Fun at SSU

I got all dolled up, plastered my image onto a bottle of mediocre wine and hit SunnySide Up for the annual holiday party. Earrings & a whisk, I am so hot. Scotty caught the spirit and came appropriately decoratedHow could he have known Qacei would have the same idea?There was lots of fun that cannot be captured in photographs, at least not on my already overloaded telephone's memory. Instead of documenting our laughter filled conversations or charming photos of baby Billy, celebrating his 364th day of life, I offer you hilarious documentation of Theo's mischievous form of entertainment:Jon was the original victim, with a "Kek Me" ~ everyone in the room ended up with one of Theo's signs at some point in the night ♥
Greg is wearing the remainder of what was once my very own "kes my butt" sign. Jon did. It was priceless. Burned forever in my memory; mine and that of the 7 year old witness.
Oh yeah, and I showed off my new purple bra. Hot ♥

KINCERNED Laughter

Need a pick-me-up? Need a happy reminder why you haven't been back to see your cousins in Arkasas for 20 years? Read this. With Kincern for your computer, please read without liquids in our mouth or your vicinity.
I thought the massage I received this morning (thanks SCB!!) was the best part of my day. NOPE! The laughter induced by the comments has restored my faith in humanity's humor.

And, in the spirit of good art, just because there are men I'd like to treat like this:doesn't mean I'm going to be anywhere near thisIf there's a single god anywhere who doesn't support Love in it's each and every human expression then by golly, there's a god without my faith. Poor god. Yay me, Yay Love ♥