Music for Your Heart & Soul

I participated in the Imagination Tribe's Heart & Soul CD exchange... The timing of the trade had great influence on what I chose, a very diana's grieving while maintaining her diananess mix, if I do say so myself :) Today, my friend sent the sweetest comment I told her I wanted to listen to it and put some of the songs on the IPod and she said...."You'll want to put them all on!" So I'm listening to your CD right now. I sat right down and wrote out why I picked the songs I did and what they mean to me, Heart & Soul, right now... Here's my list (and yeah, I'll get ya yer own copy if you want!)
1- 60B (e-town theme) from the Elizabethtown Soundtrack: my favoritest movie and the sweetest song, for me it represents all of the passed-by exits, all the turns not taken, and the joy of the journey on the chosen path. Cameron Crowe is married to Nancy Wilson (of Heart), she wrote that little diddy for the movie as her hubby described it to her!
2- Universe & U - KT Tunstall: All is right in Life when you and the universe are on the same team!
3- Lady behind the mask - Bonnie Bluhm: I was "introduced" to Bonnie by an ABQ unschooler. Bonnie's album is dedicated to her son, who transitioned from her life at a very young age. This song accurately represents the feelings of a grieving mama, me! I can't wait to meet her for real!
4- It'll all work out - Tom Pettty: from the Elizabethtown Soundtrack - Tom's voice is so calming in any form, but this song brings me GREAT comfort when I think of how things always do work out eventually & I always imagine the song is about Hannah and Mitch (Better off with him, than here with me...)
5- Io (this time around) - again from e-town! : This is for that eternal question: What if *this* is it?? If this *is* indeed our one chance at life, then Life better sound like this song!! Better yet, what if This Time Around is just practice for Next Time? You can be anyone!
6- The Reason - Hoobastank: Unschooling anthem at it's finest AND a great song to sing to yourSelf, Be your own Reason!
7- Wide Sky Life - Amy Steinberg: A very diana song, a very empowering and makin' ya glad to be human song; I've got a Wide Sky Life!! Amy is the musical muse of my heart and soul, she sings my story in every tune!
8- Give me Novocaine - Green Day: As upbeat and optimistic as I am, some days I just want to get thru life medicated!! To open one's Self to feeling anything means one must be open to feeling everything and sometimes that's way overwhelming!
9- Hallelujah - Shrek Soundtrack - again: so diana in it's message: circumstances don't matter, I'm a-gonna sing my hallelujahs!
10- Shut up and Smile - Bowling for Soup: Life really *is* this easy sometimes: Ice cream & a hug :) Hayden once called this the perfect daddy song: all we need is Love and Beer.
11- Just a Girl - No Doubt: Hannah's song!! Warms my heart and soul, knowing she's not the domesticated chick being sung about... (and maybe, just maaaaaybe she's been reincarnated as Gwen's kid!)
12- I'm so Special - Amy Steinberg: Sometimes all I need to do is to get the hell outta my own way!!
13- Learning How to Smile - Everclear: I'm just learning how to fall and get back up again!
14- Sweet Jane - Cowboy Junkies: the eternal human quandary of the lessons our hearts lead us to and through... Also makes me think of Sweet Jayn Coburn, I imagine her as the little unschooler inside me!
15- Say Goodbye - Girlyman: I'm all too well-rehearsed... I wish I could be so melodic in my expressions :) My heart and soul just aren't the same since saying (hello &) goodbye to Mitch
16- Carry On - Tim McGraw: Okay, I'll say it, this guy is HOT, HOT, HOT!! And he's married to the totally HOT, amazing, wonderful Faith Hill.... oh, and he sings real purty, too :) Again, a very diana anthem! What's a happy alternative to carrying on? I haven't found one!
17- Through the Dark - KT Tunstall: THROUGH, not over, not around - straight through and on the other side awaits the joy of newfound Light!
18- Skyline Pigeon - Elton John: It wouldn't be a diana mix without my Boy! He sang this song to Ryan White and lyrics are inscribed on Ryan's headstone... I played it for both Mitch and Hannah when they left, it's my wishes for their soul-full freedom :)
-I put the next two songs on for Hayden. It warms a mama's heart when the son puts Greatest Day on repeat and carries it as his personal anthem!
19- Good Riddance (Time of your life) - Green Day: All the times are the Time of Your Life; Now is what you got, whatcha gonna do with it?
20- Greatest Day - Bowling for Soup: May every day be your greatest day!!

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This is the reaction I was going for: That was just wonderful. Your cd was the first one I listened to and all of the songs I just FELT!!! And I loved them and I am glad you wrote out why you chose the songs you did (after hearing your story on the lists and seeing the beautiful quilt, I would cry to some of the songs and not really know why, and then I realized it is because I “knew” you and I could just FEEL the songs). Thank you, they really touched MY heart & soul, too!!

My Lover Style

The Liberated Lover

59% partner focus, 61% aggressiveness, 90% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Liberated Lover.

The Liberated Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and forms the kind of free-thinking, sexually-exciting, self-confident lover that society once condemned but that a liberal-mind cherishes and exults. The Liberated Lover is a treasure to find, though it can sometimes be difficult to do so because they are often already engaged in relationships or are in high-demand if "in the market."

In terms of physical love, the Liberated Lover is possibly the most thrilling and demanding of all, with the one potential drawback being that it is possible to feel 'overmatched' at times by their prowess and selfless giving. Given trust and understanding, and the right lover, the Liberated Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Exotic Lover (most of all) or the Carnal Lover, or the Suave Lover.

Congratulations!
Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST



My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

	You scored higher than 99% on partner focus
	You scored higher than 99% on aggressiveness
	You scored higher than 99% on adventurousnes

The gifts are worth it

Whirling and swirling 'round my brain today...
the highest right, the internal, instinctive guidance system for the ferrets in Curious Lives... and how that connects to The Secret and the meter for our feelings... and how that connects to the House of Contracts in The Journey Home... and random thoughts of gifts and exchanges and agreements and karma and perspective... acceptance: forgiveness and gratitude...
and such sage advice from the stars today: Although you want to be socially involved, today it's difficult to tell others what you need. That's fine, for keeping conversations on the lighter side now will likely work out for the best. Otherwise, you can become so overly demanding that you won't get anything at all. Turning down your volume and sense of urgency makes sense.
...sounds good to me!

Haiku Heaven

We can't come to gym
new furnace installation
say hi to the gang.
~Mel

A kind man you are
When you listen to me rave
Thanks for being you.
~Me

New inspiration
The sacred feminine shines
from deep within you.
~Scotty

The gifts are sublime
Your words speak straight to my soul,
Magic is afoot.
~Me

The Journey Home

one of my all-time, makin' sense of the universe, heart soothing, soul inspiring, most favorite, sacred books. I ordered two from Amazon; one to loan. I know it's appearance today is a blessing, I ♥ divine timing. Just holding the book, I am filled with the memories of the lessons therein, anticipation for reuniting with the Michael Thomas in me, inspiration already!
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It's a parable about everyman (as in every HUman) and the journey of Life... if one has one, that is! Existence vs Living? There's a big difference between being alive with a heartbeat and truly, deeply BEing Alive, having a Life, your heart and soul a-singing. What makes one life more joyful than another? We carry with us intrinsic lessons/gifts for ourselves and others we meet along our path; every encounter is an exchange of gifts, of knowledge, of experience of what it means to be human. One can become open to those gifts when Gratitude is deep; when we uncover, utilize, strengthen, and OWN the tools of perspective at hand, our Journey Home is easier; no matter how rocky our road. Home. Isn't it a comfortable word? We can manifest those ideals of Home in our here and now, to carry inside with us where ever we go - We are Home!
A book with Namaste at it's heart.
I can't wait to curl up; can you tell?

I am Brave

Gemini: Truth or dare? You'll take both -- and a double-dog dare while you're at it. You're fearless when it comes to getting a new venture off the ground or discussing a matter that everyone else is too scared to bring up. -midco.com
Gemini: The edginess is settling down and you are thankful that your world seems like a more relaxed place, but this doesn't mean you are slacking. Although you may not be as motivated today, you still can become overly enthusiastic for a short duration. The idea of beginning a project might sound like a good idea, but you may not have sufficient energy to follow through and make it happen. -tarot.com

Like I needed another reason...

Midday Haiku:

I just kissed a girl!
When I open the car's door,
Her scent still lingers.

~scotty

Never underestimate your own power!

Gemini: You are interested in discovering what drives others to seek power at work or in love. You may be ready to delve into the intense world of hidden feelings, a place that you often avoid. Now, however, you are willing to overcome your resistance, even if you are not comfortable with the thought of what's ahead. You are on the right track, for you will surely feel relief once you know the truth.
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Aaaaaaaaalready a great day! We got some respite from our gloomy enclave to venture out to shop... with Scotty :) So very nice of him to postpone his well-deserved nap to schlep us around to entertain him! It was nice to have another person there to talk my ideas through with... Hayden wanted to buy a cheezy card reader, on clearance for $15; he left it with me and went back to the toy dept, so I had a few moments to decide my strategy for imparting some "buyer beware" wisdom about this purchase; it was a rare treat to turn to Scotty and admit this is one of those times I'm really at a loss for how to meet my goal of autonomy for Hayden and his giftcard while avoiding the inevitable sadness over a regretted purchase; I talked through all my concerns, so when Hayden approached, I was able to share those with him, without making a value judgment about his choice (Do you like X-men? What happens when they stop making booster packs? How much are the booster packs? $4 eek! Should we be suspicious that it's on clearance?), he had already set his sights on a Tamagachi (which he already knows the entertainment value of...) and a set of NintenDogs trading cards. Next, we shopped for used video games... didn't find anything he really wanted... at the last minute, he grabbed a Grand Theft Auto game and decided he wanted it; I was torn! Are you asking for the game because I said I would buy you one and you don't want to leave with nothing? OR is this really a game you want? The GTA games we already own don't get played very often... Hayden was initially mad at me, but soon realized that the promise of a video game really IS better postponed and used on a game he really, really wants, instead of settling for yet another one he won't play. At the end of the conversation, Hayden was walking ahead of us and I sighed and said, "My tongue is bloody from biting back the moral objections I have to that game, I'm glad it was resolved without having to go there!" Sometimes it's so exhausting to do such mental dancework, I imagine it's really exhausting for someone outside of this lifestyle to watch!
Scotty happily returned us home and is on his way to dreamland :)
Peace has once again settled into our lives.

The cards in my hands...

Judgment

May you receive what you had lost.

Deck: Goddess [card art © US Games]

What has traditionally been known as the Judgement card, sometimes entitled Resurrection, represents the great reunion that the ancients believed would happen once in every age. This was the time when souls are harvested and taken Home to their place of origin, outside the solar system. Then the World is seeded with a batch of new souls and the process starts over.

>From a modern point of view, this great reunion -- which includes every personality that you have ever been and every soul that you have done deep work with -- reunites to consciously complete the process. In a way, we symbolically celebrate this returning to center every year on our birthday.

In personal terms, the Judgment cards points to freedom from inner conflicts, and so clear a channel, that the buried talents and gifts of past incarnations can come through an individual in this lifetime. This card counsels you to trust the process of opening yourself, because what emerges is of consistently high quality. You can effortlessly manifest as a multi-dimensional being, and assist in evoking that response from others.

and so are the days of her life...

This whole new thing is so fun, I can't eat, I can't stop smiling, I'm constantly tingly, I keep my bed cleared off at all times ::bg:: Cool bonus: In Scotty's absence, I make sure to have extra 1:1 time with the Boy, so he's more comfortable when S's here. My willingness to attend him while I've got company is a boost to him, as well...
It really is a pleasure to date a self proclaimed slacker, as he just loves to hang out with us. Last night we got to watch two movies! I picked Hitch, 'cause it's the very best Valentine movie :) I forgot how much it focused on first kisses and the female psychology there about :::blush::: We relinquished the living room and watched This is Spinal Tap on my bed (a luxury for the futon guy!) ... we snuggled and giggled and held hands and he managed to instigate a really sweet kiss ♥
We talked a little bit about my list of cities for new homes... I told him Hayden has nixed Corvallis (as it is too far from everything; we're quite used to being a day's drive from anywhere we want to be!) and I'm not really sure where we'll land (my moving muse has made way for grief)... hanging around Sioux Falls for a while longer isn't the worst case scenario. It may have been this conversation that earned me the kiss ;) There's some strange foreshadowing here in my blog like this on the day before I met Scotty, or this one (note the picture!).
I will land exactly where I'm supposed to land. The gift of Bodhicitta means I have no attachment or value judgment of my new home, mere gratitude is enough - and I got loads of that!!
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S: Your aura shines bright and hot, yellow and white... I'm so very happy we've met :)
me: I am mystified by divine timing... for you I am just plain grateful.
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He's carefully considering accompanying me to the luncheon on Saturday. Knowing Mel and Eric are attending helps, but he's not quite sure. (it'd be a gratitude party indeed!) How much of a hard sell can I give? I'm glad he's not taking the responsibility lightly ;) He'll be playing later that evening and I'm hoping to actually see them perform. And popping in to Jeanie's 40th year celebration concert at Cool Beans... All this joy! I'm glad to have room for it ;)
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Okay, who's up to being my evening's chaperon?