6 years a widow...

The Last Night

...of my 6th year in the Life formerly known as the New One;
this chapter must be the New New Life.

For somethin' I was never gonna do I'm not sure how to measure my aptitude... I'm certainly doing and I'm chugging along being and that is what it is... My Life.
I like to mark Mitch's Death Day. Notsomuch for Mitch anymore... it's my day, it's the day a brand new diana was born. The diana never imagined. The diana stretched. The diana whole. The diana with courage. The diana with faith. The diana who remembers. The diana who knows.
I am surrounded by faith. The souls entrusted to my heart and care have faith in me. I am in awe of my own power. I am strong. I am brave. I am whole. Right Here, Right Now... and when Over There, Whenever becomes Right Here, Right Now, that will be perfect, too. And I am equipped. I have skills. I have Wisdom. I am open to knowledge. I heal and I tend. I breathe and am calm. I laugh and spread Joy. My Light will shine and my path shall be illuminated by the warm hearts of my friends. My Love will stretch and grow. My Patience runneth over. Abundant is my Life; my Life is Abundant.
Once again, my prayer tomorrow:

For all that has come to pass, I say Thanks.
For all that has yet to come, I say YES!

It's all Julie's fault...

Self Portrait Challenge
Yep, I'm just gonna do it...

I didn't have the courage to do last month's glam shot (that, and my skin was not so glamourous last month...), but in light of the 37 days thingie, I'm gonna begin December with 37 days of Courage (I mean Courage where even *I* struggle with it... like facing myself...)
This month's challenge is RED and I've got til Tuesday to perfect my Self Portrait techniques and come up with some ideerers...
So Thanks Julie!

Is is just me...

or did I just blog about this?
***You intuitively know the truth today, but communicating it verbally is another story. Just because you are well-informed doesn't mean that you can easily tell others. You may not realize it, but it's your maturity that is being tested. Don't fall prey to your own guilt, for a confession won't solve anything. Reconcile with your past before talking about the present. ***
What a surprise, I have to be the guilt-free grown-up!!
even the heavens have to tell me...

Queen of Life

...that's what Donna called me. She gave me a beautiful Tree of Life pin to commemorate my knighting :)
This talk of honoring transitions, the memories, the gifts, the amazing instinct to Love...
Qacei asked if people were gonna die cause I was around... we laughed and I said no, but if it happens to happen, I'll throw ya one hell of a death. I meant it. Strange. I don't really like death, don't necessarily wanna ever witness it again. I know, too, that if/when I do, I will be exactly where I need to be. What more is there?
40 weeks today... that's a really big number, 280 days... this New Life of ours...
The 37 day challenge is so puny in comparison, what is a mere 37 days anyway? Gonna look at that with new perspective. Am I ready to take me on? hm.

What a great day!!

Thursday, November 30th, 2006 PST

Gemini (May 21 - Jun 20)
It's a great day to pursue a moneymaking idea, as long as you aren't trying to take on the project by yourself. Relationships are sweetened now, so it might make sense to lean on others for support and encouragement. Chances are you won't have to push very hard before your friends give you even more than you need.

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What a great day for me and my friends!!

I got two penguin e-mails today... very, very different results at the end of the click:

From Kelli: http://www.usatoday.com/news/opinion/editorials/2006-11-28-medved-edit_x.htm

From Ren: http://37days.typepad.com/37days/2006/11/forever_hold_yo.html

Then I got to see Christine's homework... the perfect follow-up to Ren's link :)

Treatment Prayer
Purpose: To bless and accept Hannah’s (age 9.5) Transition

Recognition: I know that there is One, that is an endless, timeless Source of Love. I know that this Loving Source is intimately personal and yet vast in Its Being, channeling this Love through all of time and space, never ceasing, always loving, always knowing, in all ways, always.

Unification: I know that this Loving Oneness connects us all to Itself, uniting us in Spirit with all those living and those who have transitioned. I know I can never be separate from this Spirit of Love, that Lights the darkness, showing me Its Endless Love that now exists as Hannah, in every part of my world, right now and forever.

Realization: I am perfectly and eternally United with Hannah, Connected by Oneness and Love that is undying, unyielding to time, right now. I am at peace knowing that Spirit guides her onto new dimensions of Love that I access, through knowing her and loving her, now and forever. I know that I am granted joy in my awareness of this, now.

Thanksgiving: I am so thankful to be a part of Hannah, and her Life and her Family's Life. I am grateful that her transition has brought me this dynamic awareness of my connection to her through Spirit.

Release: I release my word in the Law of Mind, knowing that this is already reality.

Blessed Be.

Blessed Be, indeed! I Love My Life!! (even if it's one of those crying/sobbing from my soul kinda days... LIFE ROCKS!!)

Free Emergency Contraception

Quick! Pick up your free EC at your local Planned Parenthood: Wednesday, December 6, 2006
Sioux Falls
6511 W. 41st St.
10 am to 6 pm
(605)361-5100
Rapid City
619 Mountain View Rd
3 pm to 7 pm
(605)341-2545

Even if this is something you know you'll never need, you just never know who may wander into your life who needs you to have this in your medicine cabinet...

It's the Real Thing

...when commercials give you chills.
I loved this commercial as a little kid; Mrs. Surts had us sing this song in 3rd grade:

I'd like to build the world a home; And furnish it with love
Grow apple trees and honey bees; And snow-white turtle doves
Chorus:
I'd like to teach the world to sing; In perfect harmony
I'd like to hold it in my arms; And keep it company
(That's the song I hear)
I'd like to see the world for once
(Let the world sing today)
All standing hand in hand
And hear them echo through the hills; For peace throughout the land
That's the song I hear
(That's the song I hear)
Let the world sing today
(Let the whole wide world keep singing)
A song of peace that echoes on; And never goes away

(Repeat 1st stanza and Chorus)

Put your hand in my hand; Let's begin today
Put your hand in my hand; Help me find a way

what great memories... Even Coca-Cola understood the call to peace... we've since been distracted... may this be a great reminder to us all...

My Dream Tatoo...

I'm getting an arm band. A tall, all the way 'round armband. I'm thinking 4-5 inches tall and about 12 inches around (eek! is that accurate? I'll have to get really buff if it's not!) I've oft described it as "grafitti art" and I think my idea is more from doodle art (it's Christine, she'd send me pages and pages of her little doodles and I've always held them up as my kind of art ::bg::) A bunch of little icons that are individually and collectively diana! :)
The centerpiece is gonna be a paperdoll set, the connected at the arms kind, with a bigger purple girl one (me!) with blue girl and red boy on either side, with HaHaMommy written across the bottom of my skirt. I want LOVE written like a 14 year old girl: all connected and bubbled, with a heart for the middle of the "O," a peace sign, the )0( moon goddess symbol, the goddess shown below, Hayden's monster (gotta love this one!), lotus flowers, swirlies, a lil monkey, and, and, and... ideas?

Monday's Mumblings...

I washed my bedding yesterday, then I spent some time in my very warm, smellin' fresh little nest... as I folded laundry on my newly clean bed, I found some time for new admiration for my unschoolin' quilt; okay it was Lily's butt that did it for me ::g:: but just thinking about the love that went into those squares and how much love and warmth I'm embraced in every time I lay down... It's just incredible. The Polar Bears have all become Spirit Bears in my mind and I am so comforted by the thought of my own Spirit Bear.
Our favorite Xmas decorations are up around town... the trees on 33rd and Philips, just a bunch of colored lights, but they're lit every year without fail and such a simple icon for me... They're awful lonely this year, Hayden ooohhs and aaaahhhs with me but it's not the same without the other voice... I know she lives in those moments, those moments that bring Hannah to my mind, through my heart... I really didn't know it could be like this, feeling such big joy at the memory and such big emptiness at the emptiness...
I watched The Secret at Karen's house, the first part of it anyway... Hayden and I will be downloading it later this week... A great reminder of what I've always known, always held as True, a reminder of my own Power of Attraction and how skilled I already am... Now to use my powers for good :::bwahhahahaha::: I think this is the exact message Hayden needs, too... he's already there philosophically, it's in the practice he has issues... Ah! to be 30 years ahead of me, evolutionarily speaking... again I'm excited to bear Witness.
I gathered with my Sisters on Saturday... it was beautiful and perfect... my Mehndi is beautiful: a lotus on my open palm. I'm pickin up the guitar and writing my own ding-dang diana song! I also gotta kick ass on the tatoo development...
Brittany hung out with us Saturday Nite/Sunday. Hayden was so happy to be extra social (Alex, Elizabeth & Megan, too); I was notsomuch, but it worked out well. I even scraped myself together for Pirates of the Carribean 2.
In the spirit of Tolkien, when a guy named Rohan asks me out, I just gotta say yes!