Is is just me...

or did I just blog about this?
***You intuitively know the truth today, but communicating it verbally is another story. Just because you are well-informed doesn't mean that you can easily tell others. You may not realize it, but it's your maturity that is being tested. Don't fall prey to your own guilt, for a confession won't solve anything. Reconcile with your past before talking about the present. ***
What a surprise, I have to be the guilt-free grown-up!!
even the heavens have to tell me...

Queen of Life

...that's what Donna called me. She gave me a beautiful Tree of Life pin to commemorate my knighting :)
This talk of honoring transitions, the memories, the gifts, the amazing instinct to Love...
Qacei asked if people were gonna die cause I was around... we laughed and I said no, but if it happens to happen, I'll throw ya one hell of a death. I meant it. Strange. I don't really like death, don't necessarily wanna ever witness it again. I know, too, that if/when I do, I will be exactly where I need to be. What more is there?
40 weeks today... that's a really big number, 280 days... this New Life of ours...
The 37 day challenge is so puny in comparison, what is a mere 37 days anyway? Gonna look at that with new perspective. Am I ready to take me on? hm.

What a great day!!

Thursday, November 30th, 2006 PST

Gemini (May 21 - Jun 20)
It's a great day to pursue a moneymaking idea, as long as you aren't trying to take on the project by yourself. Relationships are sweetened now, so it might make sense to lean on others for support and encouragement. Chances are you won't have to push very hard before your friends give you even more than you need.

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What a great day for me and my friends!!

I got two penguin e-mails today... very, very different results at the end of the click:

From Kelli: http://www.usatoday.com/news/opinion/editorials/2006-11-28-medved-edit_x.htm

From Ren: http://37days.typepad.com/37days/2006/11/forever_hold_yo.html

Then I got to see Christine's homework... the perfect follow-up to Ren's link :)

Treatment Prayer
Purpose: To bless and accept Hannah’s (age 9.5) Transition

Recognition: I know that there is One, that is an endless, timeless Source of Love. I know that this Loving Source is intimately personal and yet vast in Its Being, channeling this Love through all of time and space, never ceasing, always loving, always knowing, in all ways, always.

Unification: I know that this Loving Oneness connects us all to Itself, uniting us in Spirit with all those living and those who have transitioned. I know I can never be separate from this Spirit of Love, that Lights the darkness, showing me Its Endless Love that now exists as Hannah, in every part of my world, right now and forever.

Realization: I am perfectly and eternally United with Hannah, Connected by Oneness and Love that is undying, unyielding to time, right now. I am at peace knowing that Spirit guides her onto new dimensions of Love that I access, through knowing her and loving her, now and forever. I know that I am granted joy in my awareness of this, now.

Thanksgiving: I am so thankful to be a part of Hannah, and her Life and her Family's Life. I am grateful that her transition has brought me this dynamic awareness of my connection to her through Spirit.

Release: I release my word in the Law of Mind, knowing that this is already reality.

Blessed Be.

Blessed Be, indeed! I Love My Life!! (even if it's one of those crying/sobbing from my soul kinda days... LIFE ROCKS!!)

Free Emergency Contraception

Quick! Pick up your free EC at your local Planned Parenthood: Wednesday, December 6, 2006
Sioux Falls
6511 W. 41st St.
10 am to 6 pm
(605)361-5100
Rapid City
619 Mountain View Rd
3 pm to 7 pm
(605)341-2545

Even if this is something you know you'll never need, you just never know who may wander into your life who needs you to have this in your medicine cabinet...

It's the Real Thing

...when commercials give you chills.
I loved this commercial as a little kid; Mrs. Surts had us sing this song in 3rd grade:

I'd like to build the world a home; And furnish it with love
Grow apple trees and honey bees; And snow-white turtle doves
Chorus:
I'd like to teach the world to sing; In perfect harmony
I'd like to hold it in my arms; And keep it company
(That's the song I hear)
I'd like to see the world for once
(Let the world sing today)
All standing hand in hand
And hear them echo through the hills; For peace throughout the land
That's the song I hear
(That's the song I hear)
Let the world sing today
(Let the whole wide world keep singing)
A song of peace that echoes on; And never goes away

(Repeat 1st stanza and Chorus)

Put your hand in my hand; Let's begin today
Put your hand in my hand; Help me find a way

what great memories... Even Coca-Cola understood the call to peace... we've since been distracted... may this be a great reminder to us all...

My Dream Tatoo...

I'm getting an arm band. A tall, all the way 'round armband. I'm thinking 4-5 inches tall and about 12 inches around (eek! is that accurate? I'll have to get really buff if it's not!) I've oft described it as "grafitti art" and I think my idea is more from doodle art (it's Christine, she'd send me pages and pages of her little doodles and I've always held them up as my kind of art ::bg::) A bunch of little icons that are individually and collectively diana! :)
The centerpiece is gonna be a paperdoll set, the connected at the arms kind, with a bigger purple girl one (me!) with blue girl and red boy on either side, with HaHaMommy written across the bottom of my skirt. I want LOVE written like a 14 year old girl: all connected and bubbled, with a heart for the middle of the "O," a peace sign, the )0( moon goddess symbol, the goddess shown below, Hayden's monster (gotta love this one!), lotus flowers, swirlies, a lil monkey, and, and, and... ideas?

Monday's Mumblings...

I washed my bedding yesterday, then I spent some time in my very warm, smellin' fresh little nest... as I folded laundry on my newly clean bed, I found some time for new admiration for my unschoolin' quilt; okay it was Lily's butt that did it for me ::g:: but just thinking about the love that went into those squares and how much love and warmth I'm embraced in every time I lay down... It's just incredible. The Polar Bears have all become Spirit Bears in my mind and I am so comforted by the thought of my own Spirit Bear.
Our favorite Xmas decorations are up around town... the trees on 33rd and Philips, just a bunch of colored lights, but they're lit every year without fail and such a simple icon for me... They're awful lonely this year, Hayden ooohhs and aaaahhhs with me but it's not the same without the other voice... I know she lives in those moments, those moments that bring Hannah to my mind, through my heart... I really didn't know it could be like this, feeling such big joy at the memory and such big emptiness at the emptiness...
I watched The Secret at Karen's house, the first part of it anyway... Hayden and I will be downloading it later this week... A great reminder of what I've always known, always held as True, a reminder of my own Power of Attraction and how skilled I already am... Now to use my powers for good :::bwahhahahaha::: I think this is the exact message Hayden needs, too... he's already there philosophically, it's in the practice he has issues... Ah! to be 30 years ahead of me, evolutionarily speaking... again I'm excited to bear Witness.
I gathered with my Sisters on Saturday... it was beautiful and perfect... my Mehndi is beautiful: a lotus on my open palm. I'm pickin up the guitar and writing my own ding-dang diana song! I also gotta kick ass on the tatoo development...
Brittany hung out with us Saturday Nite/Sunday. Hayden was so happy to be extra social (Alex, Elizabeth & Megan, too); I was notsomuch, but it worked out well. I even scraped myself together for Pirates of the Carribean 2.
In the spirit of Tolkien, when a guy named Rohan asks me out, I just gotta say yes!

Wooo hooo! The ride home!

I think leaving Corvallis was one of the hardest things I've done lately... it didn't help that my leaving was questioned by everyone we told! I tell you, it's an amazing, amazing (need a word that means even more amazing than amazing) place.
After some lunch (guess where!) and some great company, we hit the road at just after 2pm pst, Tuesday. Hayden had not yet gone to sleep but his mood was refreshingly upbeat! He was asleep before we hit the Solyent Green factory (actually Georgia Pacific Paper plant, but it looks creepily like SG!) on the way to Portland. I didn't take the shortcut Jon mentioned- silly me!- so we were stuck in traffic for a while and I got to practice my breathing and take a long last look around...

Our route was funny, I didn't want to do any treacherous mountain paths like the trip out, so I had to drive all the way to Spokane, WA to hook up with I-90, which will take us all the way home to Sioux Falls. I'd never been to that part of the world, so I appreciated the view and the vibe and I sprinkled Hannah all over the place. There was a Mitchell Point and Wild Mountains :) I took my first little nap (~3 hours) in a beautiful, wooded reststop just outside of Coeur d'Alene, ID. Hayden woke me up and we hit the road again. We sprinkled Hannah in the Panhandle National Forest (who knew?). At about 5am, just across the border into Montana, we stopped for breakfast and were treated to great entertainment by the one man show in a little cafe. He warned us we were between storms and should get back on the road in a hurry, so we did. On the mountains just past him, we ran into our first signs of winter weather! There was only a few miles of icy mountain roads, a bit scary but breathing and gently braking got us through without a hitch. By the time we were in Butte, the snow was far behind us and forgotten! I called my dad then, to see how much farther we had to go and he told me about a shortcut... I was skeptical, I didn't want us to get stuck anywhere, but then we lost service. Somewhere in here was the Crazy Mountain Range -- ooooh, yeah, we spread some Hannah love there, too! When we got to Bozeman, I was in serious need of another nap! Hayden rode his scooter 'round the rest area while I napped in the car for a couple of hours. It was 60+ degrees and sunny, perfect for us both. When I woke up, we went to Target, on our eternal quest for a claw machine (or a "scam machine" as Hayden says!) -- nope! But we had a great visit anyway... When it was time to eat, I found Taco John's; Hayden had been missing his TJs the whole time we were gone, so I was back to being Mom of the Year! Dad got ahold of me again and told me exactly how to do his shortcut (212 E veers off of I-90 near Billings, MT and rejoins it S. of Belle Fourche, SD, cutting 150 miles from the trip!!); it was clear and beautiful. AND it took us just past Little Bighorn - again. This time, Hayden was awake and we decided to check out the park. Lucky for us, we had 5 minutes before they closed!! AND admission is free after 3:30 pm! It's a powerful place, that park... I could feel it the first time I drove by and I was smacked with it when we entered... The first view is the military cemetery... the thousands of soldiers who (yet another example) died for an unjust cause, in the name of American Stupidity and Greed. I wandered around the visitor center, to see the gravesites on the hill, the graves of those First Peoples who died for their right to exist... I was stopped by the ranger who wanted to go home (it was already past their 4:30 closing time and he wanted us to leave so he could close up)... I know I was not meant to go there, I just looked and I cried. Hayden took a picture for me, knowing how sad I was to miss going up there. I had some Hannah in my hand and I wanted to put her up there and not down there with the soldiers, but I guess that was where she was needed! I left her there with a prayer of forgiveness to those folks who acted out of ignorance and a misplaced sense of patriotism. I don't know if we'll ever go there again, it really hurt my heart, but I think we just might... just to pay homage to all of the Souls who met their human demise there.


















We followed Ed's shortcut and fondly remembered our combined family trip to Idaho a few years ago, to see Gramma Lambert. Hannah had been here with us; it was comforting and inspiring. We rolled into Belle Fourche (bell foooosh) before 7pm pst and arrived at Karen and Johns in Rapid City near 7:45!!
They're taking off tomorrow morning for a many-month stint in SoCal, following John's construction job... Hayden was once torn between family today or friends today... I gave him great space and enough time; he decided we'll leave here tomorrow, when they do. He really needed some Saylor time. Soaking up some Karen/John/Stone/Sage love doesn't suck for me, either :)

Sometimes...

the answer from the gods is YES!
Like right now!
I just got an offer of $150!!
Just like that.
I've got just over $100 right now, between donations and working
We'll get home comfortably with some Happy Meals, even!
and I'll have $50 waiting at home for my last week before payday!! Yahoo!
Thank ye
Thank ye
Thank ye

Abundant patience...

that's what I got!
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Gemini (May 21 - Jun 20)
It's not too late to make a simple change in your daily routine, even if it's one you should have made yesterday. A subtle change at this time of your life can set a series of profound consequences into motion. The potential is greater than you realize, so make your actions count as much as possible.