Right Here, Right Now

Ah, what a difference a day makes!
I cried. For hours. Sweet Release, it was! Hayden hovered and made sure if I wasn't okay at the moment, I was on my way to being okay. His concern moved me to more tears. He was a shining example of not taking it personally, as he witnessed and supported my process.
I talked to Scotty. We're getting a joint account at the local credit union, thereby leaving all of the corporate banking craziness where it belongs - in the past and out of our lives. We're beginning to look at this life as a joint venture, as well. Not just you and me, a real US! (omg, is that grownup thinking or what?!?!?!)
Then I left the house. It was a tough one. I remember the moment where I debated if I should remind Hayden of the homeschool day at the local Boys & Girls Club... I waffled and I waffled and then The Voice said: You're in this for him to make this life better for him, put your crap away. And I listened! We were actually up and at the Club by 11:00 am!! :::happy dance::: There I was immediately met by a friendly face and a True Offer of help -- a free Life Coach ♥ I'm gonna take a deep breath of courage and jump into a support style relationship. I just gotta. The gods, with their infinite sense of humor tempered with a bit of actual caring, have put this person on my path with this offer at the exact moment I need it. I'm not one to disregard the gifts of this Life.
Hayden was met with equal joy by several of his friends. As he ran off to play Rock Band & Dodge Ball, I was happily distracted by the daughters of Linda & Scott. Ah, the love they infused into my grey-wallowing thoughts! Pondering enough change for blueberry pop-tarts is so much more important than whatever past-ghost feels the need to haunt me. So much did I need the company of these bountiful spirits, they all decided to follow me home. For hours! (I'm gonna do a whole post over at Bodhicitta) I not only had to pack up the past, I had to be fully present and conscious of my right here, right now with their energy surrounding me.
In the middle of this honorable visit, I popped over to pay our rent. To the usually-in-my-mind grumpy, cantakerous landlord. He was sweet and gentle and oh-so concerned about me. Which is usually his wife's job, she must be having an influence ;) Our rent's caught up and we signed a new lease for the next year.
Then I got to be at Sunnyside Up for the last of the Celtic Jam sessions (they're moving to Old World Deli on Tuesday evenings), sharing my amazing monkey bread (which, thanks to all the yummy butter, I enjoy vicariously). After I helped close the place down, I got to visit Bre and her Josh. Shhhh, don't tell him, but she let me drive his Mercedes home that night ♥ It's really hard to drive when you've got a girl-boner, though I thought I did pretty well!
And it just keeps getting better... I had a looooooong shift on Saturday, as SSU's best Dish Wench (since Mary). The energy of the place, the customers, the artwork, the amazing food, my co-workers & the sense of teamwork... it was straight up exactly what I needed!
Oh, I met a real-live kiwi (the native New Zealander form) who was on his way to Seattle to hop on a plane to go home... he'd planned to take the coast, but was discouraged by the overcast day he awoke to. I recommended he still take the coast (as there are probably a handful of sunny days available to take that trip) and he could let me know if it was particularly awful and I'd not recommend it again. He took me at my word and asked for my e-mail address to inform me later; of course, I asked him to take some Hannah with him. And he agreed excitedly to do so! I can't wait to hear where she leads him...
See, I can see the glorious bounty before me. I can choose to be right here, right now with JOY!